happee 2007

as we left 2006 behind us, i couldn't help but turn around to look for the last time. only one thought rose above the ebb and flow of others, demanding to be heard and remembered as i stepped into the new year.

who'd have thought that things would go and turn out the way they did? who knew that my dissertation would follow me into the early months of 2007. who could've figured out that people who meant so much to me became strangers and strangers became friends. or how i ended up needing therapy. how i miss my nearest and dearest at home and yet grow to love my solitude. or how heartbreakingly beautiful my family has been all the while when i wasn't looking.

2006 wasn't the year i was at my best at anything i did. it wasn't when i was in the best of control either. two things i value a lot. it was however the most i've lived in a relatively short span of time. some great essays were written, some shitty ones were churned out. i've been social and a sociopath. there was abject confusion and yet so many things were made clear. i've been sick and i've never felt better before in my life. i felt full and yet there were times when i felt downright empty. there was love and there was loss.

i will always remember it as the year i kinda lost it. but in pain, the greatest revelations were made. and in so many ways, it answered some questions that've been burning inside but rather forgotten and lost within life's heavy traffic.

so happy 2007 people. viva life and revelations but let us keep the pain to a minimum shall we? all the best for the new year!